being told that your best friend is talking about you sucks, this is the last time i ever will talk about it, because i dont wanna waste my time caring for someone. im not telling anything to anyone anymore, i cant even trust my friends…..my own friends…anyways..uhm i had a date on friday lolz oh and school is a bore

well, its one of my “best friends” birthday this friday and I am not going :) she pissed me off to the point im not going to her birthday…… like we’ve planning this event for over months. I really want to go but im proving her a point by not showing up. she cant just talk to me like that, i cant with her anymore. i also want my other friends to forget about me in a way, i rather them leave me now than in a couple of months… school is school, and im still the same since high school. i guess people dont change 

yesterday i had a nervous breakdown. i cried so much, it was ridiculous. i called my best friend and cried to her. ive never done that in my life…..cried to someone like that. she was understanding and she cheered me up. she’s like my ultimate best friend,i love her so much, idk what i would do without her to be honest. i need a piff tho…………

today is the first day of college….i should be never nervous, but surprisingly i am not …weird. It takes me about an hour to get there bleuhh oh and i just got my period awesome. im going to eat now. bye.

sometimes i wonder if i had different friends how my weekends would be…. i want change, they keep doing the same old thing. i just feel stuck, stuck with them. i really wished i had other friends . but sadly noone wants to chill with me….. sigh …. ma vie.